Everything in heaven comes apart

Which is the title of one of my favourite Martyn Joseph songs. I have had the strangest of mornings, of bizarre extremes, positive and negative. I felt as if I was precisely ‘coming apart’ – but God’s grace is present in it.

We had one of my all-time favourite psalms at Morning Prayer – psalm 45, which I’d like at my funeral, but a different verse struck me today rather than the usual ones:

“Your right hand will teach you terrible things”

That was, of course, the burden of the Old Testament Heart. It is starting to shape me more and more; sometimes it is frightening, but I do believe that God is in it. God being in it, of course, doesn’t stop it being painful.

Ho hum.